worth??

i noe..its worth waiting..
tho its like rubbing a salt on my wounds..i noe its worth..

darling, ill hang on..like wut ive said 2 u before, ill hang on..
coz it wont be same if u'r not here..
u wont understand me coz u dont know how u really meant to me..
its not easy to shake off our memories baby..
ur soft kiss on my forehead, ur warm hug..

i dont care if u r too busy and didnt hv time 4 me,
but as long as i know u r mine, dat wud be enuf 4 me baby,
dat wud be enuf..coz all i need is u.
i dont care if 2 c ur face is like once a week,
i dont care if 2 hear ur voice is like a min in a day,
i dont care, as long as u r mine baby..

darling, i noe its hard 4 u as well,
coz i noe u have so much thing in d world u want 2 soak up with ur eyes,
n i noe u still have a big list u want 2 do in ur life,
n i noe u have a tons of friends which they will be 1st thing on ur head,
well baby, ill never stop u from doing anything,
we can do it all together,
i dont care if im not d 1st thing on ur mind,
coz when we were 2gether,
We can build our own little world,
where no one can come through..

i really want u 2 know diz,
ill wait..nothing can stop me from doing diz..
but i wont be here long baby,
sumday u'll know when im gone....

wtf...sorry i break my promise..
i cant help myself from posting a blog about my love life..
coz i really love diz 1 guy..
cant stop from thinking of him..
wut shud i do when everything i do,everywhere i go,remind me of him?

we did it!!

we won d tag rugby game 2day and nothing more 2 say coz im soo00ooo tired!!!
sleep yah!!taa..

*update
31 may 08
wehh...damn so0oo busy..

random

2 days ive been leaving diz box wif an empty space nothing 2 write bout, nothing 2 bring up plus im so bz wif my rutin life n been concentrate on my job hunt.. 1 interview down, got 1 more left..sigh..
owhhh... n league for tag ruby start diz wednesday..so kinda bz 2 keep myself ready 4 dat thing...
havnt heard of tag rugby, r u?
how 2 xplain it huh?haha..make my work easy, so i copying it from wiki..lazy butt i am huh?

Tag Rugby is a non-contact team game in which each player wears a belt that has two velcro tags attached to it, or shorts with velcro patches. The mode of play is similar to rugby league

with attacking players attempting to dodge, evade and pass a rugby ball while defenders attempt to prevent them scoring by "tagging" - pulling a velcro attached tag from the ball carrier.

Tag Rugby comes in several forms with OzTag and Mini Tag being some of the better known variations. Tag Rugby has the highest participation levels in Ireland and Australia.

nah..hope u guys understand..im not gud in explaining..juz copy paste n taadaaaa...done!!haha..
owhh..1 more...d one dat im involved in is a mixed league wic a min of 3 players must be female...and if d female score, they will get 3points wic 2 points more than they supposed 2 get..yeahh!!gurl rule..they make it like dat bcoz its not easy 4 gurl 2 score, well of coz gurls run slower than man..duhh..

talk about Ireland..have u heard of Eurovision...i dunno about this before till 1 day im soo bored out of my wits n turn on d tv n i saw dat dustin d turkey was going 2 represent Ireland n i really thot it was a big joke..
when i finally sat down n watched d show i tot d rest of d countries entries was a joke too!!
i expected d song contest to emphasise more of the countries own individual style or at least sing in their own language... but it really surprised me when i saw a Russian pop singer singing in english while being skated around by a figure skater and Greece's entry singing in english about her secret combination wtf while touching her crotch..hahaha...
Ireland took d chance of a turkey n poked fun at itself n it was d only intentionally funny part of d show...serious!
i didnt really follow dat show acely.,.juz 2 mention here a least irish did do smthng 2 make people hv a gud laugh...

well...dats it..
taa...

sunday, may 25, 2008

nothing much 2day..well its still morning..wut do u expect..haha..
juz finished my yoga..n now doing d sudoku..my morning rutin..
so ill update l8r..

*update
been reviewed d typical interview Q wic sum of them i dunt hv any idea how to answer it..

tell me bout urself
> im a totally freak..haha..can i answer it like dat? or they will kick me out 4 instant right after i've answered dat..tee hee hee..
d best answer is try to talk about things i've done and jobs i've held that relate to
d position dat i want. i think im goin 2 start with the item farthest back and work up to the present.
i'm an experienced account person with extensive knowledge in account and finance work..haha..really?
i'm always eager to learn new methods n procedures n hv implemented continuous improvement techniques in my past positions. bla bla bla..

wut is ur greatest strength
> i am gud at mumbling, sleeping, shopping, crying, eating n other ing..haha..
hehe..kidding..ermm....diz is my answer, i'm gud at communication skills, organizational skills, priortization n time mngmt and able to play an effective role when assigned to a team working environment.
Numerous answers are good, just stay positive.

wut is ur weakness
>this is d tough Q among all..coz d answer i've given to the interviewer might threatened me back..

y do u want diz position
>d answer shud smthng dat relates to the company profile and my skills..kn?haha..

how i handle stressful situations
>i'm making a 'to-do' list or i call dat 'master list' helps but sumtimes i do stretching and taking a break but if i feel overwhelmed, i'll ask for assistance.
but basically im cool working under pressure.

y u are d best person in diz job
>still working on d answer..i'll update later..

wut is ur salary expectations
>my salary expectation is around 25,000 to 30,000 euro per annum but depends on the company itself want to give me the salary based on my skills, qualifications and experience.

last but not least..

Often the interviewer's last question is, "Do you have any questions for me?" Candidates who do not have questions show a lack of initiative and give the impression that they have minimal interest in the position. Stand out from those lazy job seekers by asking questions...
ask a Q that relates to the company or relates 2 d job..
such as, wut wud i be expected 2 accomplish in diz position?
wut r d greatest challenge n etc etc etc...

there's summore Q..mls nk type da..

so thats it...now i want to take a shower..

is diz d end?

dont hv mood n idea wut 2 write about..juz copy n paste..easy work!!
but this song really have connection with me..
if u r in my shoes then u'll feel wut i feel..
song from kokokaina again...first untitled...

Is this end?
Then why does it feel
We'd only just begun
I thought we were done

I think I'll hang on
If you still want me
But if you don't
I guess I'll move on

And if you need me
Close your eyes and dream
I'll give you back your key
But will you be happy?
Will you be happy?

Said we'll leave it alone
But I wont be here long
And when I'm gone
I guess then we'll know

maybe i shud stop dreaming now..n move on..
wut do u think?

owh n i notice most of my blog is about me n my luv problem..haha..
shud change dat...yahh..
dun worry..no more complaining bout me nemore after diz..thee hee hee..
I promise you that everything is fine and dandy, and soon (hopefully) you'll know it was worth to read my blog... I promise!

new addiction

omg...!!
im watching diz vid from sum1 blog..n i was hypnotized by her voice..
i tot it was norah jones..but suprisingly not...haha..
guys, u SHUD watch diz...




n diz iz d lyric..

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
but it doesn't mean i no longer care
but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear

i cudnt help myself from fall 2 diz girl's voice..
her name-kokokaina..wut a unique yet lovely name she have...hee...

bad day

its not a good day..
late to blackrock, get a bad news bout my job hunt and my 1st day period..
no wonder im so0o emotional 2day plus im not feeling well lah..got cough..

but things started goin well after i got a puzzle from him..
indeed, it works! makes me not think of d rejected email 4 like 5mins..haha..

then, i got email from him again, saying:

"ni ade ni...
u jgn pkir sgt kay...i tahu mesti u down nyer dpt reply cmtu...
nanti kita try lg ok? kalau pkir lama2 nti lg tense...xdpt buat apa2 gak...
move forward...kita cari balik...insyaallah blh...
I have faith in you..."

sweet innit?hehe..
especially d last word..
really makes my day...n right after dat, got email from 2 company at d same time..
got another interview!!yayy.....!!!!
i think he bring d luck out of him for me...thee hee hee...

i

im waiting...

still here waiting...

wait 4 u 2 say dat magical word..
juz say yes..
n d world goin 2 change....
d sun will shine again........
promise u we will be 2gether 4 ever...

............

my mommy with my daddy..hee..


just had a conversation wif my mum...feels like wanna go home now!!
though it was juz a 15min conversation, but words dat came out from her mouth really goin deep down 2 my heart wic automatically makes me speechless.

i miss u mommy..
please buy me a ticket..wanna go back 2 msia diz raya..
hehe..of coz using ur money again coz ur daughter dunt have her own money.. ;p

we were talking bout my nephew, my daddy's new hobby n my coming exam n owh she did ask me when im goin 2 hv a bf? i think she's think too much or maybe she knows that nobody likes me..mommy, u really can read my mind..jeez...ahaha..
dun worry mommy..i'm only 22..still got plenty of time...
n there's sum more thing dat she said which i cant mention it here..

owhh ya..her birthday coming up soon...n i dunno wut i shud buy 4 her...
hermmm..........l8r la eyh...hehe..
taa....

disappointment

Looking at my recent pictures in Manchester remind me of math prodigy, sufiah yusuf or her new name shilpa lee who won a place at Oxford University at aged just 13 but now become a perfect hooker with her so-so body figure.

This gifted girl had the world at her feet ten years ago and should be a rich woman by now, but currently she was busy subtracting her underwear for the undercover reporter in her dingy back street flat.

I wonder wuts up to her mind when she decided to be a hooker. With her amazing brain she should be able to make money any way she wants. But instead her life has spiralled completely out of control. Come on, I can bet that everyone been dreaming to have a brain like her.
Eventhough she earn 130pound per hour, but still, dats not a gud way 2 earn ur money for living. Grow up gurl, u really want to be a hooker until ur age turn 30, 40 or something? until your breast become fugly and ur skin like ewww...i dunt want 2 mention dat..

I didnt say dat i'm against her 100%, mayb she have her own reason being dat way.
Maybe she depressed, pressure or had an emotional abuse or something, we didnt know rite?
I've read 1 of the article writing about her saying that she describing her life under her father as a living hell. No wonder she become like that bcoz her domineering dad Farooq was jailed for sexually assaulting two 15-year-old girls as he home tutored them in maths. wtf..wut kind of daddy is dat?

4 sum point, now I realize y my daddy always ask me 2 "blaja rjn2, sembahyang n all" so when I grow up, i'll become a 'human'.
i love u daddy..u r d best daddy ever!!
ok...lets save d sentimental part 4 another time..haha..

back 2 sufiah yusuf..
I dont get how a strict Muslim child who prayed five times a day and was subjected to her father's famous Accelerated Learning Technique and once described by her parents as "naive and shy girl" become such a women like this..
Poor her mummy.. I've seen in youtube when her mummy been ask by reporter 2 comment bout her daughter..and with a calm face but sorrow inside her heart, with a smile on her face,
say :

"dont follow her steps, dont make sufiah yusuf as a role model,
intelligent doesnt mean that when u do the wrong thing,
intelligent is how u adapt and adapt is when u keep ur principle,
good principle and that is more important."

i felt sympathy for the family, especially the mother.. she have to face the world,she carry the pain more than u can imagine..

I think maybe Sufiah has suffered so many knocks in her life. I just hope she can drag herself out from the life she has got herself into. Maybe she is a good person before and deserves a much better life than this. Her gift really has been a curse.
Lets pray for her to change and back with her family again.....

untitled

is it just me or all people around me always having a problem to be honest, be true..
its not dat i dun want to be so..but sumtimes life treat us to react artistically towards or against our manner, our style and ourself of course.
in any way, just be true 2 urself..datz wut im goin 2 do..n lets see how its goin 2 work on me..

untitled..
y is it untitled?
coz i cant think of wut d most suitable words 2 be a title which best replace wut was happened to me juz now, 3 hours before and from d morning i woke up from bed.

sigh.....

how am i goin 2 start with..
yeahh yeahh...i think im goin 2 start it with my wake up song..haha..
>>1,2 step by ciara n missy elliot..
wtf...im using diz song not bcoz i like it..
but dat is d most suitable song dat can make my drowsy sleepy head 2 wake up..
duhh..its annoying..haha..
d 1st 2 thing in my mind was dat name again....sigh....and darn!i have 2 make a lunch pack 4 kids..oh no..wait, its sunday!
doin d same thing, shower, having breakfst n all...bla bla bla....

wtf..y i hv 2 tell u guys all diz thing...??
am i out of mind or smthng?hahhaa..lolx..
ok ok...focus!!

i got sum so-so news wic one of my houzmate want to move out from my house..
n...............wut happend next cant tell u guys coz its 2 privacy i think..
(then wuts d purpose im posting diz blog?wtf)out of mind again..sigh...

n....dat evening im goin back 2 blackrock..
sum1 send me back...cant tell ya whos dat is..
n cant even say dat name coz making me like blushing, bla bla bla.....
but ____ makes me smiling 4 like every seconds when ____ say dat ____ want 2 send me back..
thee hee hee...*noty kn?

owhh ya...4got 2 tell ya...before im goin back to blackrock, im chilling at my super duper fav place, lemon jelly, wif my super besties, suria, yana, chadly, mex n gorgon, having a crepes...my fav tasty treats, wif banana n nutella inside n raspberry ice cream on top...yummyyyyy!!!!cant wait 4 next weekend..goin there again wif nana..
tee hee hee..

juz right before im posting diz blog, i did smthng wic really not on my master list..
n i get a feedback wic not like tot it wud be...
not really a gr8 end of my day i supposed..
but wut i have 2 do now is 2 wait wait n wait...
but everything has it limit..n so do i...
go with d flow, stay 2 d low n make it slow..hahaha..wtf..
since when im gud with mix n match d words..hahaha...

..........sigh..............
ending a blog with marie digby song lingering on my mind..
stupid for you...

*lyrics*

It's not everday
That I find a person quite like you
Perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you !
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you..
Stupid for you..

The proper thing to do
Is for me to act like a lady and wait
For you to make the first move
But I don't think you're getting the point
That it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me waiting here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you!
Oh, oh stupid for you

Why's it always feel like I am
Chasing love when nothing's there
And here I go just making the same mistake...

I've fallen stupid for you..

animosity, detestation, loathing, abomination

These are d words which have 1 meaning..hatred..
hv u feel diz way?
hv u feels like u wanna kill urself without giving a chance to urself to say ur last word?
me?yeahh...datz wut im thinking..gee..
im pathetic?yes i am..hahaha..
yah yahh....i mumbling..
yeahh i noe i shudnt hv dat kind of thot as it is against my religion..

lalala...im boring...
sum1 please...hate me..
no!! i shud say diz.."sum1 pleasee...save me!!"
hahaa...wtf..save me from wut? am i having a brain tumor on a last stage?hahaa....
owh mayb i am..no wonder i have a big head, coz im carryg a big tumor inside my head..
i shud take dat out sumday..

i noe whoever read diz wont understand wut im shitting about..
but be in my shoes, n i can bet u'll crying non stop coz i noe u not strong as i am..
trust me..diz tumor is superly duperly sick...

i'm taken

2-3 weeks back ive been bz ‘managing’ 4 kids which utterly cutest kids ever!omg..is dat mean im ready now 2 hv my own kids?haha..wtf..hell no..

Really cant help myself from falling for them. Each and everyone of them always laughing and playing like there will be no end of d world.

Every weekdays I’ll be at my mommy’s fwen house. I love it. I love staying there, playing with them, listen to them complaining bout school, and love 2 hear when they back from school, ‘auntie, we’re back. I’m hungry, wut u make 4 us 2day?’

Hatred, betrayal, hurt, pain, sorrows, misery just dont exist there. Laughter does. I love laughing with them, it makes me feel at ease.

And when ive got claz or going sumwhere n hv 2 leave them, they will ask me,

“Auntie, where r u goin?”

“Are u coming back again?”

And I’ll answer to them, yes without even bothering if I have smthng 2 do next day.

And when I’m about to leave, they will say, I’m gonna miss u auntie.

Simple words and smile and bloody hell lighten up your day. As you touch them, you can feel the trust they have in you, you feel their honesty, you feel their joy and their passion.

I’ve always been a taker, now its time to shift, be a giver. Love every second of it, give give give but yet, still receive.

I juz realize that I’m taken, taken by an innocent kids who have a pure heart.

human emotions

I have an unexpected and perhaps even a tad bit embarrassing regarding emotional reaction to something that is seemingly innocuous today which i think its so so n so embarrassing and i dont want to mention it here. but so what? i dunt wanna suppress it.

I really need to let my emotions which is MINE not YOURS (bear dat in mind) come out in full force right now.

I think it's not such a bad thing to have human emotions.
I can't be a robot all of the time.

......sigh......

At least I'm in touch with my feelings.

yeah...i think i need to clbr8 dat!!haha...

lets go shoppinG!!wtf...

owh btw...check out my new pic..tee hee hee...