summer sale = madness!!

seriously i've got nothing to write about. cut it short, only this i could do.

madness

madness

madness=summer sale!!

and....im broke!! like totally broke! wtf!

brown thomas!

brown thomas again!

i wanna puke!

lalala~

lads,
im back to normal after been through with so0o dramatic session.
and im really touched for those (anyone in particular) who being part of me when im need u..
so touched to have friends like that.. *tears rolling down*

well..im still on my errands with this fucking job hunt.
and...still up to 'the hills' season 3.
omg...ive been stuck with this series for like what..5 bloody hours.wtf.. i really dont have a life.
i mean, a gud and proper life. T___T

Imagine now.......
when you are broke, and you know that if you going out, you probably gonna buy something which is unnecessary, plus you know that now Dublin or in other words, UK & Europe are having a Summer Sale that are Super Madness where Thousand of people crushing with each other to spend their money over a branded items which on sale now........
you already know that, but....you decided to just spend your time at home watching The Hills and Lauren Conrad on TV's and just ignored what happened with everything that surrounding you..
doublee U tee EefffFFF...!!!!! GIVE ME A BREAK!! this is so0o unlike me..
but...what can i do, im so broke that when im shaking my purse i can only hear my coins speaking to each other like..'hey, let us outta here..we're so sick living in here, in an empty purse and rather being in a purse with full of notes'..wtf..

whatevertheness,
tomorrow, im gonna go out and having the sale fever same to others, but just by window shopping..pity me.
.....sigh......


out~

breath

ryn died on 15th July

Rest in Peace








haha..im just kidding lah!!
i have problem summore.somebody please come and rescue me!!

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HI!!!

Hiatus Mode : OFF

Just had conversation with him over the phone, so now i'm ok la. as long as he's safely arrived there, so i think thats fine.

I want my long hair back...GROW hair GROW so i can bloody curl just at the bottom of my hair so i can look hot like Alessandra Ambrosio. I wish!

Still unemployed. so0o boring just sit at home, go out and spend my parentz money. as if they shit money everyday. I wish they do though.............sigh.................

I've been ogling to buy new LV shades omg super classy and expensive!!

Season 4 'The Hills' is coming this August..yayy!! i cant wait to watch what happen next to Lauren.
I wish I can be rich like her so that I can do whatever I want!!

So yeah..seriously i have nothing to blog about. or maybe i do. but just some random rambling thoughts that always crosses up in my mind.

bitter+lonely

every food that went into my mouth, it taste like harsh acrid taste. omg, i really feels like i wanna die now..now means right now!! no wait..im still sane, not paranoid tho, its just that, i am officially 'single' start from today.. haiyaahh...single doesnt mean that i am already break up with my boyfriend or something. stop making assumptions okayy.. he's going back to Malaysia already and leaving me here again, alone..sigh..

sayang, you really have to go meh?

i wonder how am i going to survive without you here darling. have to wait for you like 2 and a half month!! could chuu imagine that?? T_____T
really hope that time will move fast so that i can be in his arm again. its all about patience and i know that distance will never separate 2 hearts that really care.

a month we have been together and a few things had happened which some people try to shake off our relationship. i really dont have ideas what have running through their minds and what did they get by doing that to me. satisfactions perhaps.
i am really mentally tired. to0o many things..to0o many.. i can't cope it all at once. too much pressure and too much drama. yet, i am happy because he still stick with me. thankful that i am finally found someone that really understand me, being part of me when im sad.

to recall again 1 year back,
i am very picky when it comes to relationships. i dont want it to be a short term relationship where we will go separate ways after a few months of being together or even worst, weeks. I prefer a long term relationship, where i can cherish the person where we slowly know about each other's true colours and he'll always be in my heart for the rest of my life.

Throughout this 12 months, I've rejected quite a number of guys. They're wonderful, don't get me wrong. They're such cool guys, but I really don't think they can satisfy me and make me happy in a relationship, giving me the tenderness and infatuation that i had when i was with my ex. Friends said im picky and expecting too much. Well i said im following my instincts and heart, because when you know it's not the one, you just know it. And by that, i can't make them happy either.

I've learned alot after the bad break up i had with my ex last year and I slowly accepted it. It was a struggle at first, everything i did it reminded me of him, things that we did together.
but now i have grown and starting to forgive slowly to whoever may have do anything wrong to me because i know, i am not an angel, imperfect myself, i am only human.
i dont wanna spend another days pointing fingers and simply placing blame to others.
everything that has happened must be a reason behind it. again, its all about patience.

what you read here its only a summary of what i have been through for a worth roller coaster life. life is not simple, the more we try to dig, the more harder it will be. so just stay and try to appreciate what we have in front of us. thankful. grave it in your mind.

now,
i am finally found the one. hope our relationship will long last.. *pray for us*

T____________T
haiyahhh.... whateverness, i am already miss my baby.
he now on the plane otw to Kuala Lumpur.then fly to Kuching after that.
i'm send him to airport this morning. had breakfast at McDonald no choice because the rest of it serves Irish breakfast with ham, bacon and pork sausage wtf. eat egg and cheese burger with hash browns. tho its only 3.60euro, its yummy.take some pictures while eating..hehe..
then went outside, ciggie for him not for me, taking pictures summore.
then the times has comes that he have to leave me at the gate. hug him and cry cry and cry.
and whispered to his ear, 'im gonna miss you darling, and i love you so much'.
then he went inside the gate and i cant see him anymore. T___________T







yesterday, the last day we spend our time together.
went to urban outfitters near the temple bar then we had our lunch at Fitzsimons Hotel where located in the heart of Dublin's Temple Bar. I had fish & chips and soup of the day with bread, buffalo wings and spicy cajun burger for him. really had a great day out!!








holy shit this is one long post *.*

ryn is out now...taa~

chill+love

helloooo....
sunny scorching today and i think its 19C. which is quite good and its nearly burned my skin..duhh..
went for shopping with my sayang and chill at the park..
and i have lotsa pix here from our camwhoring session at the park..hahaha...









there goes all our pictures!!!!hehe...
sayang him alott!!!!


Hiatus mode : ON

ttyl..~

yadda yadda...

hei lads..
pheeww...its been a while since my last blog was on 27th of June omg and now its already 6th of July. Time flew so fast huh..
well, i did told ya that its hard for me to post a blog if my bf were around. see see now i have proved that..tee hee.. looking for a tiny little time to post a blog, it was so hard i tell you.
sorry to cik serabut as well, haven't got time to do the survey. I will do that later ok?hehe..

ohh and 1 more reason why i keep on silent for like a week, because...my laptop got something wrong with it and i don't know why. everytime im turn on the laptop, the screen like blank, totally blank and i assume its must be the light on the screen was burn or something.
it did make me daze for like a day, but i just ignore it because i have no idea what should i do.
haha..im so0o bimboness. but today, when im turn on my laptop, tadaaaa...its back to normal.
its so0o weird here and i don't wanna know what went wrong with it just as long as i can use my laptop back, so i think it's fine..haha...

well..nothing much with me. still running on my errands until i got job.
god, grant grant me more strength please. mentally and bodily. both!

until then..i will update later..
taa~