Friday, August 1, 2008

hiatus mode : ON


apparently, yes I am still alive.

errr...................

alaaaaaaaa.......

pissed off!!!!!!!

Sunday, July 20, 2008

summer sale = madness!!

seriously i've got nothing to write about. cut it short, only this i could do.

madness

madness

madness=summer sale!!

and....im broke!! like totally broke! wtf!

brown thomas!


brown thomas again!



























i wanna puke!

Thursday, July 17, 2008

lalala~

lads,
im back to normal after been through with so0o dramatic session.

and im really touched for those (anyone in particular) who being part of me when im need u..
so touched to have friends like that.. *tears rolling down*

well..im still on my errands with this fucking job hunt.
and...still up to 'the hills' season 3.
omg...ive been stuck with this series for like what..5 bloody hours.wtf.. i really dont have a life.
i mean, a gud and proper life. T___T

Imagine now.......
when you are broke, and you know that if you going out, you probably gonna buy something which is unnecessary, plus you know that now Dublin or in other words, UK & Europe are having a Summer Sale that are Super Madness where Thousand of people crushing with each other to spend their money over a branded items which on sale now........
you already know that, but....you decided to just spend your time at home watching The Hills and Lauren Conrad on TV's and just ignored what happened with everything that surrounding you..
doublee U tee EefffFFF...!!!!! GIVE ME A BREAK!! this is so0o unlike me..
but...what can i do, im so broke that when im shaking my purse i can only hear my coins speaking to each other like..'hey, let us outta here..we're so sick living in here, in an empty purse and rather being in a purse with full of notes'..wtf..

whatevertheness,
tomorrow, im gonna go out and having the sale fever same to others, but just by window shopping..pity me.
.....sigh......


out~

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

breath

ryn died on 15th July

Rest in Peace








haha..im just kidding lah!!
i have problem summore.somebody please come and rescue me!!

*.*

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

HI!!!

Hiatus Mode : OFF

Just had conversation with him over the phone, so now i'm ok la. as long as he's safely arrived there, so i think thats fine.

I want my long hair back...GROW hair GROW so i can bloody curl just at the bottom of my hair so i can look hot like Alessandra Ambrosio. I wish!

Still unemployed. so0o boring just sit at home, go out and spend my parentz money. as if they shit money everyday. I wish they do though.............sigh.................

I've been ogling to buy new LV shades omg super classy and expensive!!

Season 4 'The Hills' is coming this August..yayy!! i cant wait to watch what happen next to Lauren.
I wish I can be rich like her so that I can do whatever I want!!

So yeah..seriously i have nothing to blog about. or maybe i do. but just some random rambling thoughts that always crosses up in my mind.

Monday, July 14, 2008

bitter+lonely

every food that went into my mouth, it taste like harsh acrid taste. omg, i really feels like i wanna die now..now means right now!! no wait..im still sane, not paranoid tho, its just that, i am officially 'single' start from today.. haiyaahh...single doesnt mean that i am already break up with my boyfriend or something. stop making assumptions okayy.. he's going back to Malaysia already and leaving me here again, alone..sigh..

sayang, you really have to go meh?

i wonder how am i going to survive without you here darling. have to wait for you like 2 and a half month!! could chuu imagine that?? T_____T
really hope that time will move fast so that i can be in his arm again. its all about patience and i know that distance will never separate 2 hearts that really care.

a month we have been together and a few things had happened which some people try to shake off our relationship. i really dont have ideas what have running through their minds and what did they get by doing that to me. satisfactions perhaps.
i am really mentally tired. to0o many things..to0o many.. i can't cope it all at once. too much pressure and too much drama. yet, i am happy because he still stick with me. thankful that i am finally found someone that really understand me, being part of me when im sad.

to recall again 1 year back,
i am very picky when it comes to relationships. i dont want it to be a short term relationship where we will go separate ways after a few months of being together or even worst, weeks. I prefer a long term relationship, where i can cherish the person where we slowly know about each other's true colours and he'll always be in my heart for the rest of my life.

Throughout this 12 months, I've rejected quite a number of guys. They're wonderful, don't get me wrong. They're such cool guys, but I really don't think they can satisfy me and make me happy in a relationship, giving me the tenderness and infatuation that i had when i was with my ex. Friends said im picky and expecting too much. Well i said im following my instincts and heart, because when you know it's not the one, you just know it. And by that, i can't make them happy either.

I've learned alot after the bad break up i had with my ex last year and I slowly accepted it. It was a struggle at first, everything i did it reminded me of him, things that we did together.
but now i have grown and starting to forgive slowly to whoever may have do anything wrong to me because i know, i am not an angel, imperfect myself, i am only human.
i dont wanna spend another days pointing fingers and simply placing blame to others.
everything that has happened must be a reason behind it. again, its all about patience.

what you read here its only a summary of what i have been through for a worth roller coaster life. life is not simple, the more we try to dig, the more harder it will be. so just stay and try to appreciate what we have in front of us. thankful. grave it in your mind.

now,
i am finally found the one. hope our relationship will long last.. *pray for us*

T____________T
haiyahhh.... whateverness, i am already miss my baby.
he now on the plane otw to Kuala Lumpur.then fly to Kuching after that.
i'm send him to airport this morning. had breakfast at McDonald no choice because the rest of it serves Irish breakfast with ham, bacon and pork sausage wtf. eat egg and cheese burger with hash browns. tho its only 3.60euro, its yummy.take some pictures while eating..hehe..
then went outside, ciggie for him not for me, taking pictures summore.
then the times has comes that he have to leave me at the gate. hug him and cry cry and cry.
and whispered to his ear, 'im gonna miss you darling, and i love you so much'.
then he went inside the gate and i cant see him anymore. T___________T







yesterday, the last day we spend our time together.
went to urban outfitters near the temple bar then we had our lunch at Fitzsimons Hotel where located in the heart of Dublin's Temple Bar. I had fish & chips and soup of the day with bread, buffalo wings and spicy cajun burger for him. really had a great day out!!








holy shit this is one long post *.*

ryn is out now...taa~

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

chill+love

helloooo....
sunny scorching today and i think its 19C. which is quite good and its nearly burned my skin..duhh..
went for shopping with my sayang and chill at the park..
and i have lotsa pix here from our camwhoring session at the park..hahaha...









there goes all our pictures!!!!hehe...
sayang him alott!!!!


Hiatus mode : ON

ttyl..~

Saturday, July 5, 2008

yadda yadda...

hei lads..
pheeww...its been a while since my last blog was on 27th of June omg and now its already 6th of July. Time flew so fast huh..
well, i did told ya that its hard for me to post a blog if my bf were around. see see now i have proved that..tee hee.. looking for a tiny little time to post a blog, it was so hard i tell you.
sorry to cik serabut as well, haven't got time to do the survey. I will do that later ok?hehe..

ohh and 1 more reason why i keep on silent for like a week, because...my laptop got something wrong with it and i don't know why. everytime im turn on the laptop, the screen like blank, totally blank and i assume its must be the light on the screen was burn or something.
it did make me daze for like a day, but i just ignore it because i have no idea what should i do.
haha..im so0o bimboness. but today, when im turn on my laptop, tadaaaa...its back to normal.
its so0o weird here and i don't wanna know what went wrong with it just as long as i can use my laptop back, so i think it's fine..haha...

well..nothing much with me. still running on my errands until i got job.
god, grant grant me more strength please. mentally and bodily. both!

until then..i will update later..
taa~

Friday, June 27, 2008

surveyy!!!~

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
-Family, FaridRazali, Friends...... & Money Money Money.


2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
-sigh..i don't have my own money obviously im a student.but the last thing i bought is Mc'd breakfast meal, egg and cheese burger with hash brown and orange juice wtf so0o fattening.


3) Where do you wish to get married?
- omg what kind of Q is this. i wanna get married on boat i mean an expensive boat..haha.. i wish..


4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
- i don't know. depends on how well the relationship goes.


5) Are you in love?
- ohh ohhh yes!! im so0o much in love right now to the super maximum of zebra and dolphin.wtf only this animal were on my mind now..


6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
-owhh i went to AYA just now with Him, Sushi restaurant. we ate 17 plate.bloated!


7) Name the latest book that you bought?
- its called a breakup because its broken...that was on 2006 i guess.


8) What is your full name?
- Fazrin Latiffah Latiff, please don't stalk me and call me Latiffah.

9) Do you prefer your mother or father?
-i want both!!~

10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
- i wanna meet me in another life wtf full of imagination..tee hee..


11) Christina or Britney?
- of course Christina.. i hate Britney.


12) Do you do your own laundry?
-i have to learn this since im staying here, in Dublin. thing i hate the most..sigh..


13) The most exciting place you want to go?
- Vegas and Rome!!~


14) Hugs or kisses?
- Both in one time..


15) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.

1) she's crazy.
2) she's utterly crazy.
3) she's super crazy until dunno what.
4) she can do a big bubble with her mouth..wtf.
5) she err..dunno whats more.haha..


16)8 things I am passionate about:

*not in any particular order*

1)Money.
2)Shopping.
3)Fashion.
4)Music.
5)My loved ones
6)Travel.
7)Food T____________________T
8)1st night SEX!! hahahaha!!!!!~


17)8 things I say too often:

*not in any particular order*

1)sigh.......
2)wtf!!
3)omg!!
4)like seriously?!
5)what??
6)really??
7)sayang..i love you...
8)Dubai~


18)8 books I've read recently:

*not in any particular order*

1)Travel guide book..wtf
2)Gossip Girl Series by Cecily von Ziegesar
3)Bloodline by Sidney Sheldon
4)Are you afraid of the dark by Sidney Sheldon
5)Dictionary (to check the meaning of the words)
6)Sudoku (can consider as a reading book arhh??)
7)ACCA Annual student book.
8)Its called a breakup because its broken, can't remember by whom.


19)8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
*recently
1)Black & Gold - Sam Sparro
2)The way that i love you - Ashanti
3)Take a bow - Rihanna
4)I'm Doing Just Fine - Boys II Men
5)Love Songs - Sara Bareilles
6)Someone you used to know - Kokokaina
7)He's my only one - Mocca
8)Can i walk with you - India Arie


20)8 things I learned last year:


2007

1)Never trust people 100%, even its your mother or our loved ones.

2)My dad didn't pluck money from trees.

3)No matter who broke your heart or how long it takes, you'll never get through it without your friends.

4)Don't wait for the things that you, yourself not really sure about it.

5)Don't simply judge people from the outside.

6)I learned how to spend RM2000 in 30minutes.

7)I know all the streets in Dublin after like what, 1 year here..sigh..

8)I learned on how to depend on myself and not really rely on my parents or my friends.



-8 people to tag:-

1) Cik serabut
2) Maskedmaster
3)Anybody...To0o lazy to think.

wordle

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

wed, june 25

guys.......tomorrow is d D-day.no i mean is a Big Day. why it is BIG?
because.......my boyfriend come back from Ibiza tomorrow.yayyy!!! and know what, we didn't see each other for like a week and IDK why im like get all the nerves out of me and i can feel that im going to be shy and awkward at the same time and and and i can imagine that im like omg, i don't know how to react in front of him..omg omg omg!!help me..why do i have to feel like this?
he went to Spain only for a week, can't imagine if he away for a month, a year or something, i will lost like seriously, lost without him..haha..
and more surprise, i don't know what to wear? should i wear a pink skirt or blue skirt or jeans or a skirt with my new gladiator sandals or with boots or with that one or this one or more or and or and or and omg..give me a break..this is weird.no i mean seriously this is so0o utterly crazy!!never had such a feeling like this! aha aha...

well...just leave me with this thing i think i know how to handle it.or maybe i am really going to be crazy tomorrow or maybe im just not going to wear anything?hahahaha!!!
its really really so0o not me here!!haha...whatever..

ohh ohhh btw, im just back from tagrugby game and we won!! yeahh!!! team malaya rules!!!
and im try/score 4 which is equal to 12points..wohoo!!
guess i got the lucky side today!!hermmm..i must have done something right today, i think..hahaha...
im going to shower now so i will update later ok...


muaxxxx bitches!!!
taa~

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

hello darlings.

i keep updating about my anger lately and i think it sucks.well actually i'm not a type of person who can easily get mad or something,its just that this is the only way i can express my anger rather than throw it to people by dig their mistakes or whatever.so in this case i am a good girl!yeahh..haha..yah yah whatever..*beams with pride wtf so0o lame*
so what have i been doing lately? well i just running my errands until my boyfriend back from Ibiza, Spain which i supposed when he get back here, i will not have time even a minutes to post a new blog..sigh...
ohh ohhh and im still waiting for my mommy to decide when i can buy the ticket back to Malaysia.
Mommy, make your decision quick, i wanna go back and going to Bali with him.tee hee hee.

Yesterday, went out for showpink at Grafton Street with errr...ALONE. ya lah alone. my friends all abandoned me with their own 'things'. One is working which an acceptable reason, one is in Frankfurt, one I don't know what happened to her because she didn't reply my msg for like a week, and another one hates shopping..sigh...

my day went fine.im sure you guys don't have any idea how Grafton Street looks like innit?
well..i did take a picture of the street but not really a great picture i guess. nevermind i'll take another picture if im going there again next time. fair enough?hehe..
ohh never forget to mention, all the shopping street here in Dublin are quite same actually. well, all shops in one street which a pedestrian walk in the middle of the building and its like 200 meter long street, i guess..haha..sigh..im not good in explanation i think.just watch the picture here ok!along the street you will see so0o many people wearing a weird costume by acting like a statue. but its cool!!

this is brown thomas. all the branded stuff like LV, PRADA,FENDI, CHANEL and GUCCI can be find here.
two afroman. don't have ideas what are they trying to do.



people act like a weird statue. cool!




i bought gladiator sandals, shades and leather handbags all at Topshop and lingeries at La Senza and whole bedsheets set for my boyfriend. omg! i thought buying a bedsheets for a guy is simple and easy. hell no. its so hard to decide which color, what design, plain or not.
im so0o confuse and i have spend in that shop for like a hour and yet still can't make up my mind on which and which to buy.haha..at last i just grab a black one with a simple design and praying that he will like it.duhh...
this is the gladiator sandals..cool innit?
leather handbags!!!
shades!!!!!~

so0o basically the shopping day was AWESOME that i am nearly burned my purse..tee hee hee.

cam whore picture before shopping session..haha..



I MISS HIM!!!!!!